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17 Sept Journal

In the past few days, I'd learnt how weak, how lousy, how crushable i am. yesterday, i totally cracked up.. crying, sobbing like a baby becos of frustrations.. i'm ashamed to admit that it's no big issue, maybe i'm just tired, frustrated of trying to balance and find the meeting point of everybody's needs, maybe it's the lack of sleep, maybe, it's burnt out..may be it's just me..

i'd realised i'm NOT capable, when things come together, i just cannot handle.. I'm impatient, i get frustrated when things do not go as planned.. I'm need to learn to trust in God for things to be in control.. I'm still so proud, so unteachable, though i want to learn, i hate to admit i'm wrong.. i live in my baby world of values, refusing to grow up, refusing to let go and let God. I cry foul and gets frustrated when the ice cream man does not deliver on time..

Oh.. what a wretched man i am, what an untamed, unruly babarian, so weak, so insignificant.. desperately in need of a saviour..

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those of you who are reading this.. thank you for loving me and caring enuf to drop by my blog.. i try to be as real as i can.. myself.. my weakness. and i ask for your patience in your dealings with me as i am still learning. thank you.

21.9.04 08:40